I'm getting tired..tired of everything..tired of sch, tired of exams, tired of wad i'm doin in my life. i desperately need a environment change now!! right now! ok, maybe i'm not tired wif hanging out wif church mates, coz there's no pressure at all.
I juz wanna finish up my degree now, and be done wif it once and for all. sometimes, i wished i hadnt chose this path, maybe i should have stayed in Ngee Ann poly, maybe life would be more comfortable there. hai.. sch life is a total mess. work load is always alot, lots of tests and exams to study for...if any of u out there think i'm leading a very free life....u r half right, coz i'm a lazy boy and don do my stuff till the very last min, so it may seem to u i'm very free all the time.
My sch grades...one word to describe them, shameful...they totally suck. i'll probably do part time work and take another degree, a more concentrated one this time and make sure i do well.
TeamBuffalo. my sch soccer team. it's never easy to play wif older people. i feel the pressure. i love soccer, but this amount of committment i gotta put in for the team sometimes limits my social life. Trainings on tues, and matches on sats. my whole sat is practically gone... plus, i should never hav told the captain i was a defender. mistakes that i made in the past puts more pressure on me when i play now. the reason i opted to tell him i was a defender was becoz i thought i could be a first team player. but now, i screw things up even more..lack of confidence and mistakes sends me straight to the bench to be a bench warmer...i should hav confessed i was a midfielder, someone who likes going forward and create offence, then i could take on less speedy players. now dat i'm a defender, i take on strikers, which is worse.. my knee and foot injury affects my agility and clearance..and i dont hav the speed to catch defenders.. u may say a gd defender doesnt need alot of pace, but...i'm not a defender to begin wif.
Anyway..woke up at 1130 today, the weather was so darn gd for slping. called kaisong and he was still in bed, that proved the weather was really gd. haha. he came over to take bus wif me from my place to IMM to meet cong kai. guess wad we saw on our way to the bus-stop...salon girls..i don know why, but i juz feel comfortable wif them, it's as if i can confide in them.
Had lunch at some expensive Hong Kong eating house wif the both of them..damn it man, waste of money, serving was little and it costs so much already. walked around, shopped for clothes, bought them, and home-d after dat.
ok, no more to say for now...this post is long enough..haha.
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